GO SEEK

June 10 , 1990 - June 28 , 2016

Today is the first day without you. I am so heartbroken and so angry that you left me, that I had to let you go and you was not taking me with you...

I do not know right now how to move on without you. Where to put the pain deep in my soul and how to dry my eyes every time I think about you. I miss you so much and I would give the world to have you back. You was always there for me and I tried to be always be there for you. You  taught me so much and every morning you put a big smile on my face when you was standing at the gate exactly at 7am waiting for you grain and you reminded me that is 5pm when you came back ...standing on the gate, waiting again for your grain. Your feet bucket stays empty now and you cozy winter blanket I bought specially for you will always remind me how close we was to each other. It was like you could read my mind and my needs and even through I had a lots of horses come and go , you was and will be always so special to me. I can't imagining the coming winter without to have you in the barn. To see you every morning and brush you carefully.









We had tuff times but  your had a amazing strong will and you always pulled out of it - but not this time .. we lost the battle. Maybe it was time - maybe I was hanging on to long - I am sorry when I did - but I was not enable to give up hope, I needed you and I always will need you. 



When I close my eyes I can still see you running up to me when I called your name. When you was retired from your broodmare duty you still had a job and took care all the new weanlings when they had to leave mama. You was teaching them and was giving them comfort like you was giving this so many times to me. I remember the day Snippy died and left her one month old stud colt behind her.


Without any questions and without my doing you was taking care about this little guy, and not only that he was looking like you - you was letting him suck even you could not give any milk. You did so a great job and I don't know what I would do without you or what I will now without you.




You was a dream of a horse and my world will never be the same without you. I am strong - I do not cry a lot but this time I can't hold back my tears, and I am not ashamed about that - I do not know how to go through today and I do not know what tomorrow brings but I will always miss you and will always love you for the rest of my life, waiting for the moment I will walk over the bridge and I can be with you again !!